When I Think About You in the Back of My Mind
by Tedria Smith
Ekphrasis in reVerse 2020
It was foggy Saturday night when it rained, and we sat in the car and carried an endless conversation after years. That one night unpacked so many unspoken things between us. You could feel the uneasiness suffocating us like a sauna. It was a quiet Sunday night when those unspoken words between us turned into real emotion. The air seemed thin and it was easier to breathe around each other. No forced conversation, and endless jokes. We touched the way hands do loved ones. I laughed until tears formed in my eyes and my stomach ached and my heart fluttered. It was a warm Monday afternoon when I realized you were departing again. How quickly you come back into somebody’s life to leave again. I guess that is your job now. You say that once you are gone, we will stay connected this time. I believe that is too good to be true. It was a breezy Tuesday morning when you boarded the plane. You said you’ll end up being a ghost in my past again. Soon after you call me to address the matter of concern. You say you were just chatting, but I know deep down that becoming a ghost of my past again will haunt you. Distance will bury us again. Distance will won’t fill the void. Distance will bring new people into our lives. It will make the thought of each other disappear quickly. Numbers will change and there will be no way of speaking. Our words will be back to their unspoken bond. Were our nights of endless conversation worth it after all these years? How quickly you come back into somebody’s life to leave again. I guess that is your job now.