Think About It

By Zenia Haley

Am I the issue?

Maybe I’m the problem.

Maybe I ask for too much.

Maybe I want too much.

Maybe I don’t want enough.

Just maybe.....

I choose to believe that my auntie is at the casino, waiting on my granny, then I believe she left me here with her niece who blames me for her leaving.

Maybe I have a problem.

Maybe I’m too sensitive and tend to overthink a lot.

Maybe I cry for no reason, but nobody does nothing without at least having some type of motive.

I can be the sweetest person.

I can be a fun person.

I’m not toxic.

I’m a product of a damaged society, but I can’t control what’s not in my control. So, I manipulate what I can control and try to keep folks’ hearts and brains out of my hands.

I fuckin’ hate it here, I really do.

I don’t think this school stuff was made for me.

Maybe I’m not as smart as I think.

I got to let that go.

I got to let a lot go.

I can’t keep holding on to stuff that’s not in my control.

Again, I fuckin’ hate it here.

I hate people, people are weird.

Maybe I’m depressed.

About the Author

Zenia Haley, Miles College

Zenia Haley- a senior at Miles College majoring in Psychology. I'm from Montgomery, Al and I currently reside in Fairfield Al. I'm currently working on a poetry book called "Just Rambling", that is coming out in June.